day 340

i set 3 alarms this morning, and it took all 3 to wake me up….i am SO glad i didn’t oversleep. waking up on time and getting to class was definitely half the battle. oh, and it was so funny that when i got back to my room at 5:30AM, i was somewhat not surprised that nick was STILL up! seriously? haha, he asked me the same thing though :P and well, he had to pull an all nighter to finish an assignment, so i took a nap while he worked in the common room.

the test itself seemed fine. part of me is not convinced that it was that simple because i’m afraid i just didn’t really understand the problem and just put in what i thought was the answer… but at least i didn’t feel tired! adrenaline definitely kicked in and pull me through the entire test. well that, and i prayed that entire morning, haha. as in, while i showered - god help me stay awake. god, help me stay focused. i know i’m not in tip top shape physically and mentally, but just get me through this!

and, even after the test, i felt fine until i returned to my room, and crashed on my bed! i mean i napped :P and i couldn’t wake up for my physio class…but, i really had to give my body a break. but i did make it to dev bio. after class, justin & i ate lunch at the rat with esther & susan. there was some funny conversation about the iphone 4 =) though it then shifted to me. it was not as funny. :P one month of dating is coming up… you really can’t call it an anniversary. wait, let me find the definition:

anniversary - the yearly recurrence of the date of a past event

ah, see? it’s a yearly occurrence! i’d be much happier when that date rolls around, hopefully =) then again, another definition says it’s just a celebration or commemoration of a certain date…. but, i think if you celebrate something too much, it loses its meaning. though, that doesn’t mean we aren’t doing anything this saturday, haha. but, imagine if we commemorated 1 month & 1 day as well… haha. wow that’d seriously get annoying. but, then again, while i would easily lose interest if that happened, i’m not sure god would. perhaps this is hypothetical thinking, but i wonder if god constantly rejoices over us in a way that doesn’t lose its appeal after the first few dozen times. interesting…

then i re-napped. :P for a bit longer, before meeting up with dan at el pelon. i can’t believe this is his first time eating there, and i do feel a bit bad for not getting dinner there with him until now… because we talked about it since the beginning of the semester! we had a good chat about life, school, and such…but then, i had to get ready for the shawlidays party!

i got all dressed up with my ugly sweater, and my roommates loved it :P i hid the sweater under a new overcoat since i needed a jacket for interviews in case things got cold… as it HAS this week! i’m so glad i have it for my columbia interview =) the party was great, though it seems only chrissy seemed to have gotten the memo that it was an ugly sweater party =/ lots of photos were taken, amazing food/snacks, gingerbread house decorating (the guys won!), and of course, SANTA! i really do have to work on organizing and uploading photos… i take SO long. also, i was surprised at how many upperclassmen came, but it was a great turnout especially since there was that pats v jets game… pats DEMOLISHED them =) i also brought my guitar, but ended up not playing which was totally fine with me since i didn’t really practice any christmas songs.

lastly, i met up with steph & jeannette at the ERC library, and figured out how to get to the highrock christmas concert! i’m SO glad i’m going, and i hope i won’t be late on my way back from new york… plus, i’ll be in a suit :P then i walked steph back to her place so i could see how she and her roomies decorated the place. not gonna lie, it’s pretty impressive. i’d say the same with the shaw house… i have no idea how people are able to transform a place into christmas cheer :) i’m guessing that’s not going to happen for my room… oh well, i’m over it :P

well, now i feel relieved of work… though i do have some to do. there isn’t anything urgent, like a test, though i know finals are in just a week! i hope i don’t get distracted…but it feels great to have journaled =)

day 322 - first date!

ah, but let me start from the beginning :P despite only getting 4 hours of sleep, and knocking out at 6AM for the second time this week, i was surprisingly efficient with my studying, and got up at 10AM to study again until class at 11. then i took my test at 12. thankfully, it went VERY smoothly! i felt like i knew most of the answers because the questions were straightforward, very much unlike my physio exam… 

after the exam, i was so relieved! because that was my last test before break :) and no assignments either, yes! i don’t think i’ve felt such relaxation from realizing that i had nothing immediately due on friday or even next week! anyways, i got lunch with arthur, my other freshman gajok son, and we had a great time talking… a lot of it focused on god, church, jaeson ma, and adjusting to bc. and, it’s encouraging to hear that while it was kinda difficult at first to become familiar with BC, he’s really enjoyed it so far!

then, i headed back to my room to see what i had to get done, stopped by mcguinn to visit binh so i could buy an ALCVC pasta dinner ticket and support him! then i took a nap, and got ready for the date =)

before heading over to steph’s place, i asked many people for advice about flowers… and i distinctly remember to not get red roses. and to get something subtle, cute, and something along those lines. so i asked the florist at cleveland circle, and it turned out pretty well! presentation is key :) and when i got to her place around 6, steph was pleasantly surprised too!

there was a slight change in plans for the night because we had originally planned to eat and then get a movie, but i think because of harry potter tonight, the most suitable time for watching megamind had to be at 6:55 at the fenway theater! and so, we headed over and made it just in time to see the previews and everything. and, the movie was a LOT funnier than expected. i cannot believe how much we laughed…and there were some romantic and deep parts :P man, i think i’m going to have to buy this when it comes out because it’s definitely an underdog story and i love the twist about superhero vs. super villain.

after the movie, we headed to boylston and made our way to hotpot! the restaurant is called Kaze, and we ordered a beef entrée and seafood entrée to split, and we managed to finish most of it! it was very fun cooking the stuff and everything, and at the end, we felt so full…. haha. and i managed to get one picture taken… because steph doesn’t like pictures to be taken :P so, consider this as a glimpse of the evening.

then, as we headed back to the T, we stopped by tufts dental school because it was just a street away! and near the T station, we noticed the incredibly LONG line for harry potter… it stretched for blocks! it’s SUCH a good thing we switched the schedule to see megamind before eating, and we weren’t really that hungry during the movie. i was a bit worried that the restaurant may have closed after the movie, but i found out that it doesn’t close till 1AM! and so when we got there at 9, there was still a good amount of people there, and people consistently came and left…ah yes, there was also a cute baby watching us eat… um, sometimes, he was put in the corner because he would just pick up utensils and drop them on the floor, haha. but he was amusing to watch because he kept staring at us… :P

anyways, we decided to walk around boston commons before heading on the T at boylston, and it was a refreshing walk, especially since we felt so full! we looked around at monuments/bandstand, and visited the frog pond that did not have ice yet :/ and then ended by looking at the stars =)

we finally headed back, and got to campus near midnight! wow, time went by so quick… and we were tired. so, we decided to watch disney channel and drink tea. actually, let me clarify, steph wanted to watch disney channel… haha. but again, i guess i lose track of time. disney shows are only 30 minutes long…. and the plots are so quick. i follow part of an episode, then come back to it and realize it’s already another episode. wow. 

so, i’d say it was a pretty good first day =) very memorable and fun, and surprisingly long! looking back, i think… we spent like 9 hours together lol. i’m pretty sure that’s not normal… but at the same time, i’ve come to realize that relationships take time. or they require time to grow. and, that’s something i have to allot for because it’s not like a meeting where you just say, 1 hour from this time to that. and, i have to be flexible in changing my schedule… which has possibly affected my sleeping habits :P it looks like it’s another 5-6AM sleep time tonight…. wooooo. i’m SO going to use this thanksgiving break to catch up on sleep & work. i hope i don’t get distracted by videogames :P

day 321

woke up feeling exhausted! i can’t believe i’ve skipped two 9AMs in a row, and i’m probably gonna do that tomorrow in preparation for my midterm tomorrow (or rather later today…). it’s ironic though, i was working on math homework to prepare myself for class, but i overslept it :P

i managed to look through some material for physio and then headed off to meet dan kim (‘11) for lunch! he’s the gajok uncle =) i think that’s probably the first time i’ve done so…and i really enjoyed the conversation. i really resonated with his outlook on life, because i think instead of focusing so much on just the grades & performance, he understands that there’s so many more important things to life. gosh, i wish i had gotten lunch with him earlier at BC!

took the physio exam, and it felt ugly. as in, unexpected because it differed significantly from the first exam, and it threw me off a bit. i did not leave that exam feeling satisfied with how i did because i doubted a lot of the responses i put down. and so, i zoned out in dev and basically just talked to eugene on facebook… except he sat right next to me. lol. i made shark & robot faces. and showed him my pokemon powerpoint. haha….i don’t know why i even went to class :P

after class, i got to meet up with kevin, who’s a freshmen in my gajok. and it was great getting to know his interests and such, finding out that he’s more interested in journalism/comm, and beat production (possible music minor?)! and so far, he enjoys BC, which is very encouraging. =) oh and he can EAT. and yet, he still has LOTS of money on his meal plan…. i don’t get it! :P ah yes, one last comment, i’ve noticed that the two kevin/kavin kangs that i know play starcraft 2…. must be SOME correlation :)

coming back from 2nd lunch, i immediately took a nap. put on some music, which i regret because i realized that while it was peaceful, i probably sleep better with no music on… unless it’s just rainymood :P anyways, i slept a good two hours and nick also joined me haha. i mean, in his own bed… but it’s interesting. we seem to have similar, yet strange sleeping schedules. i decided to get up earlier and do some work, but even by 5, it was so dark outside! then, it was time to get dinner with binh. it was great talking with him about kairos, for both of us to share our experiences, and for us to talk a little about what we understood God to be. it was a good time, but then i had to go do work!

that sort of worked, except then i got distracted. and then stopped by shinyoung’s for brooke fraser tickets!! wow, i didn’t expect to have an opportunity to buy them because they sold out so quick, but YES! brooke is AMAZING. and awkward =) and it’s this saturday! then my phone died, so i headed back to the library, to pack up my stuff, and charge my phone.

then, it was time for a little gajok surprise ;) jinah & i invited just the freshmen (rachel, arthur, vi & kevin) to lower for “late night,” and i must admit, jinah & i did a pretty good job in keeping them clueless. they’d realize something was up, but then we’d divert them with jolly ranchers. :) and so, when they realized that they weren’t supposed to be eating late night… we told them that we were going to newton! and jinah had a car, so we piled in. to their surprise, minje was in the trunk! AHAHAHA. they got SO freaked out :P because minje was like, “i’ve been kidnapped! where are they taking me?” and then the freshmen realized… they weren’t going to newton :P. instead, we headed to IHOP! everyone was hungry enough to finish their own late night meal, and it was delicious! and food coma inducing. :P we had some interesting conversation about who we thought was cute in each grade… but to make it more meaningful, we talked about our roses, buds, and thorns (haha the influence of saeyoung & susie :P). it was a great night out, somewhat spontaneous & planned at the same time, and i think everyone enjoyed it =) we also named minje our honorary uncle… because he helped plan it. i think he was originally supposed to surprise the freshmen and blindfold them… but we didn’t want to be that cruel :P

and so, getting back to campus, i got distracted by my roommates before finally, STUDYING for my psych midterm! prior to that, i was doing math homework… so i didn’t start till 2AM. and now it’s 5, and i’m somewhat ready for the test. it should be pretty straightforward, but i can’t believe i’m developing these kinds of habits of studying. too much stuff is happening!! i really can’t wait for break to reset, i hope…

day 316

awoke to my alarm, but my body wouldn’t let me get up… so i slept through my first class. i guess i really did need it. but then i woke up startled because i realized that i had something due at noon and it totally slipped my mind! thankfully, i got that all done, though it did take away from studying… i headed to the library to see hee young as she was really stressed about the test. i’m not that great at helping people when it comes to studying… and i tend not to study when it’s close to the test because i feel like either i know it or i don’t and stressing out would just make me forget more… then again, it was some good review in going over the stuff with her because sadly, i realized i didn’t retain all that much the night before :P

got lunch at the rat and met up with justin. i guess shawnee, josh, sarang and other girls at the table (i don’t think i knew who they were…) just found out about the relationship. haha, poor shawnee. well, at least she’s someone who doesn’t jump to conclusions… hmmm… then justin & i took our test! it was surprisingly long. i’m not sure how well i did but i had to use the entire time given… which was not ideal for me, because i would’ve liked to check over what i wrote. :/ but it’s done!

after the test, i quickly packed, then headed over to 90 to tell nick the good news because he had only heard it through the grapevine :P it was kinda awkward though because i usually look through his window to see if he’s in his room… but as soon as i did that, i realized someone was looking at me doing that… good thing nick did show up in the window to demonstrate that i wasn’t just creeping around, but it was still awkward because the person who saw me also swiped me into 90. faaaaail. :P haha, it was a good talk, though i wished i stayed longer… i’m not sure if everyone would want to follow my “plan” of action, though it wasn’t really a plan to wait so long for it to happen. haha, but now it’s got the guys thinking about dating… oh boy. as much as i’m glad i’ve “inspired” them, seriously…??? oh boy.

headed to reservoir, saw jeannette on the bus, and met up with dan to catch the T. we also saw jack there, and we chatted too! he was going to longwood for research while dan was heading to his volunteer. dan & i talked a lot about dating…what else? :P then we parted ways at north station. i got a coffee coolatta and donuts, and waited for stacey to arrive because she was coming to the rofl welcome night! well, she kinda has to because the speaker is her pastor… and she’s been coming for the past few weeks, so it’d be awkward if she didn’t. lol

wow, even with coffee i still passed out on the T. and it was a bit disorienting waking up. but at home, we had some great chinese food: lao sichuan! then we got ready for the welcome night!!

overall, it was a HUGE success! aside from one hitch, i am SO proud of the youth because they really put in the effort to invite their friends and make everything work. i just talked and made fun of myself during announcements :P, but i think the youth did an AMAZING job in making sure their friends were comfortable. =) they helped facilitate discussions as well, and i really think that pastor jack lee was very relevant to a group of youth from 7th to 12th. i think we had about 50-60 youth there! SO awesome, because there were a lot of new people that i didn’t see before, and many of them were from new places, i.e. andover & westford. oh, and regina brought some exchange students too! like from morocco and japan. i can’t believe it! i’m really glad that we kept to the schedule (though that’s more of a self-accomplishment because i tend to get carried away in these situations…), and that some youth stayed after to talk with pastor jack too! i also got to meet pastor jack’s team: sarah wang (the youth pastor for harvest impact) and aaron chambers! aaron shared his testimony of how God spoke to him, despite past problems, and while i don’t think anyone in the room could identify with the drug problems he’s had (thankfully!), i think he got the idea across. and of course, we ended with a circle hug, and that ended the welcome night on a high note! with snacks too =) 

i think i’m just really glad that this year, instead of just having a lot of fun games, we tried to make it more similar to what we do on friday nights: games, worship, prayer, & bible study/discussion. and people were still receptive! and, so it made it feel less… deceptive. haha. because last year seemed as if people should come just to play games! and, that’s not what we wanted to say at all. i think our mindset this time was much better, because we constantly prayed for the event as it came up, so again, i am SO proud of them! tomorrow is gonna be a conference setting, and while i don’t think many of them will be back tomorrow (everyone’s so busy…), it’s more for training the youth to become leaders, which makes me EXCITED.

now about that slight hitch… it was a slight error in planning rides for people. basically, i should’ve listened better to my sister because i only heard her and totally forgot what she said… and it made me feel so dumb. and i probably could’ve thought this situation out better if i had just sat down to think instead of constantly walking around and making everything was in order. a learning experience indeed. i still pride myself in thinking that i know what to do in such situations, but obviously, in hindsight, advice is always appreciated and humility is a requirement. but, at least everyone got back safely, though a bit later than planned, and still a success! even more so, the parents were so helpful in accommodating our needs =) SO happy!

getting home, i got to talk with pastor jack and his team. and it was pretty cool and scary to see how they were being called to plant a church in hollywood! but it was late, so we all headed off to bed. but, before my parents went to sleep, i thought i should let them know that i had a girlfriend now!

and…it was slightly different from the response i got so far from my friends at BC. but, now that i think of it, possibly more helpful. i think they’re always cautious in making sure that i don’t just go through these things without thinking. and, part of me just wants to defend myself: “but i’ve waited for a year, i think i can handle it…” but, perhaps not. in the sense that, this is entirely new, and i don’t want to rush it. i don’t think i necessarily will, but i realize that i can’t be objective as hard as i try, like feelings aside, because i’m in the situation while my parents aren’t. but, my parents approve as long as i exercise wisdom and seek God first, which is sound advice =). i think that actually helped set my mind better because as much as i’m happy with all the congratulations, i really do wonder, what’s the next step? and my mom says it all begins with prayer. even though we’re dating, it’s still a process of discovering who we are individually and as a couple, and i guess that just reminds me of this:

Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires (Song of Solomon 2:7)

so i do have the blessing of my parents, though it’s not in the form of the ecstatic happiness like my friends :P, and they told me even my grandma was wondering whether i had a girlfriend… haha. and so my family knows! and it’s been a great day =)

day 315

stunning realization: i have a girlfriend! well, technically, i guess we agreed on it at 11:55PM the night before… but today felt like i was reminding myself because it didn’t seem real… possibly because i was running on 3 hours of sleep. and i really wished i had skipped my classes because they were not worth going to, and i couldn’t really pay attention. i am not sleeping at 530 and doing that again… ugh, it felt so weird. anyways, i guess as much as things do feel different, i realized that … life still feels the same. because there’s always more work to do, and i guess that’s good to know because i want to be grounded in reality. so, this change in relationship status (which i won’t do on facebook… haha), is pretty exciting and memorable because both steph & i are giving it a shot at dating. =) up until recently, i’ve been pretty good at being awkward around girls, or avoiding them, or just being mean…but that’s an entirely different entry…yeah. so i guess this will be a new journey for me (and us), and i wonder what this story will be like.

gosh, just telling people about this has been very interesting. lots of encouragement and excitement :P which is a good sign! haha. and, i guess after today, our circle of friends pretty much all know now though i’m not sure who does and who doesn’t… and i should probably tell my parents haha. strangely, i’ve only told my youngest sister. and, my roommates know now too, and this means, only marco doesn’t have a girlfriend :P man, i hope he doesn’t feel any pressure hahahaha. 

anyways, after class i crashed on my bed until i realized i had to get up and start cleaning for my gajok family dinner. then, kaisi & jinah came over to start preparing for the sam gyup sal (no idea if that’s even remotely correct) dinner, and jinah and my family had dinner with abe, kaisi & alex’s family (why do they have 3 parents?…awkward). this was a huge group effort as dan & abe put in a lot of work cooking all the meat, and the rest of the family came to eat :P there were lots of freshmen & sophomores. there was some gross eating of the fat from grilling… i think dan and josh ate it :/ and then we concluded with mafia! the townspeople won :) overall, it was a pretty good dinner, though i bet we were pretty annoying because we kept saying how we were the best family ever: BFE. or BGE (best gajok ever) lol… kaisi was like, this is the last time we’re doing anything with you! i hope she was kidding… haha. actually, i’m just glad most of our family was able to make it, though a couple were still busy :/ but at least this time, rachel came! (i’m not sure what i’d do if she missed out on 3 events… 3 strikes = asian dad punishment? :P)  

did some cleaning up although jinah & kaisi did a lot of it prior to leaving, so that was really nice of them. then steph & maryjo dropped by =) we chatted about classes next year and then i had to head off to the library to study :/ it was a long night of studying with justin & dan, but we made some good progress! hopefully, we’ll be ready for tomorrow… i feel less and less confident each exam because i spend less time studying. not a very satisfying feeling. 

day 306

wow, i cannot believe i woke up at 745! good thing nick also set up an alarm at the same time, except he did it to buy harry potter tickets from ugbc… anyways, i did so because jv wanted to get breakfast, except he was a bit late… so i chilled with stephen before noticing jv buying breakfast and then eating with him before heading to class.

sooooo i guess i forgot to remind my professor about making up the exam, and so i had to take it during his office hours. so, at least i didn’t miss out on the beginning of how we will be comparing religions…. and everyone else got their tests back. gosh he grades fast! i then took a nap at the library, headed to the rat to eat lunch, and studied for my philosophy midterm a bit more during psych… actually, psych was pretty good today because the TA taught, and she was a LOT more engaging. then again, we were working with pretty low expectations, haha. but the topic was VERY interesting as we were going over memory… and how we can maximize our studying potential… haha, this was being discussed as i studied :P one intriguing thing was that they studied how people who studied sober and took a test sober did the best, but those who studied intoxicated and took the test intoxicated did the second best! REALLY? hahahaha. i guess those who change their state (from sober to intoxicated or vice versa) got owned. and, they did a similar test with what mood you studied and took the test, like whether you were happy or sad, and having the same mood for both parts correlated with better results… interesting!

i headed off to my professor’s office, and i was surprised at what he gave me…. it seemed so much easier than the midterm he gave the class! wow, i really didn’t expect that… because i thought if anything, i should get something harder if not the same… but i won’t complain :P

took a nap after that was all done, and got some work done before heading off to acf. i really enjoyed the topic about global poverty impact, though i wish i made some more concrete goals about how to budget and in the end, donate to certain organizations that are helping the poor! the microfinance video on TED was moving, especially about how she talked of the seeming realization that there will always be poor people around us…making the situation seem hopeless. and as a result, compassion turns into a tuning out because helping doesn’t seem to help! but, as she started talking about her organization Kiva, about providing small loans to the poor, i was surprised at how effective it was in elevating the lives of people in those places… dignity was being restored, loans could be repaid, and society was being rebuilt! and, in a sense, i felt that things COULD change! that stirred a lot of hope in me, and i think it’s these kinds of creative solutions that truly demonstrate and embody this passage from John 3:18

Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth.

this could be very exciting! :)

then i met with my parents because they wanted me to bring gifts for the people i’d be staying with at NY as i head there tomorrow for my NYU interview on thursday. and, my mom helped re-sew a button on my suit because it was coming loose…. i think i played with it too much :P the rest of the night was then spent at the library with justin, as we have a dev bio quiz tomorrow :/ hopefully it goes well!

day 287

wow it’s already 430am… and i’m not tired. CRUD.

the day began well off… though i didn’t want to budge from my bed till 845… and then i still took a shower and made it to class only a couple minutes late. oh boy…

the exam in psych went fine, and i’m glad i didn’t overstudy, though i guess i could’ve benefited from more than just skimming all the material… 

after class, i played guitar to unstress from taking two exams this week, and then i took a well-needed 2 hour nap…gosh that felt SO good. but that’s exactly why i can’t fall asleep now… it’s horrible because i knew that napping more than one hour would affect my sleep schedule. i awoke and found jv and marco in the common room…and i was wondering whether i should cook with them because i had wanted to get dinner with london…but she never got back to me :/ oh well, it was a good thing i didn’t wait on her call, since it took about an hour to prepare everything, and in the meantime, i also cleaned the kitchen. i decided to prepare steak & green peppers, spinach, and spicy beef. well, the beef was already cooked because it came from lao sichuan, so i just had to heat that up. but, i spent a good deal of time cutting the steak and peppers, marinating the meat, and washing/sorting the spinach. gosh, vegetables expire so quickly! but, i managed to cook it all pretty quickly, and i was impressed with the taste of the steak & peppers. actually, what took me aback was the fact that my roommates loved it too, even marco! shoooooot! =) 

it was a very nice dinner, as ryan decided to join us too, so we had justin, marco, ryan and me. and they let me pray for the meal before we ate. :P i cherish times like this because it’s simple stuff that makes a boring day something so much more! after dinner, i cleaned up and got to rack up two “cleaning” points… haha, so far this has been the only system that has motivated the room in cleaning and taking out the garbage… we’ll see if this works long-term.

i went to the csa/vsa mooncake festival, and it was a great turnout! i went though to see my sister because she just found out last night that she got into csa freshman reps! soooo, i wanted to see how she meshed with csa, and i think she likes it :)! i didn’t really know what to do… didn’t actually eat a mooncake, or color lanterns, but it was fun talking to people. there was actually lots of people i didn’t know…where did they come from?! haha. 

then, i headed over to the library with dan, and met justin there. we were pretty productive from 11-2, and then we headed back…. in the rain. but, it was fun walking with justin back in the rain, as he didn’t have an umbrella. then i headed back to my place. and, i learned that steph was still on campus… at like 3. err. but, she just stopped by for a minute, and then i decided to walk her back despite her protests because i know that if my sister had to walk back that late… no questions asked. plus, it’s not like this happens all the time, so very late night or early morning walk!…oh, you know, i guess this means i’m like eagle escort. or more like, the tim shu escort. :D so, just hit me up for a walk i guess? but i definitely enjoy walks in the rain, but not in the wind… :/ and it is fun sharing them with others, but my favorite times was like tonight, when i got to walk back to campus by myself in the rain at 4am… i like to think. and think. and reflect a bit. it lets me refocus, and help me sort out the different “voices” that i can choose to listen to or disregard. it’s times like these and when i journal, that i can face my stresses and discover hope for the day and week to come.

i can’t wait for kairos tomorrow!!!! :)

day 286

despite being deprived of much needed sleep, i think the excitement of suiting up gave me the energy to get out of bed! and so, i was very excited to go to class with my suit :) of course, some people gave me strange looks, and when people asked me if i had an interview, or what the occasion was, all i could really say was that it’s just for fun. haha… i guess i just like suiting up! sadly, only justin suited up with me, and other people who were in suits actually had interviews :/

classes went fine… the exam in physiology went over well, i think… though i regret overstudying. i started memorizing little details the night before, and we were mainly just tested on the main concepts… doh. i also got my test back from developmental, and i’m thankful for doing well on that test :) gosh, it was definitely stressful to finish taking a test and getting a test back in another class. the exam took all the energy out of me, so i zoned out during class, and after that, justin and i unstressed by watching glee on his new tv! glee… was very interesting to say the least. many sad parts… but also a lot of disturbing things, like brittany! i’m never sure whether to laugh at her or feel pity…

i headed back to my room to drop off my stuff and headed over to professors & pastries for free pastries! :P i met young on the way there, and he seemed a bit down because he didn’t have much sleep last night, as a result of tons of work. well, i think this cheered him up, as we picked up TONS of pastries to bring :D chocolate strawberries are amazing! so are cannolis! well, i picked some up for my roommates, and headed back to my room to relax.

later, steph & jeanette stopped by. i brought over kevin’s tv to steph’s house because their old tv broke, and as i set up the tv, steph & jeanette cooked dinner! let’s see, pasta with chicken & mandoo? it was satisfying :D oh, and esther joined us too, and it was a laid back meal. (i’m pretty lame at giving description…there’s a better word that i can’t think of at the moment) after dinner, esther & i worked on building the futon frame! this was pretty fun, especially with the help of liz & steph… errrr. um. yeah. but, we were able to get it done pretty quickly, and it was a job well done! honestly, esther seemed to do most of the work because i just sat there holding the screw in place as she tightened the bolt. or is it nut? but, i did manage to get a blister on my hand from using the screwdriver because the screws were being… disobedient. :D but yeah, washing my hands with soap is a shocking experience of pain… hopefully it heals quick.

by the time we finished building the futon, most of the house was back, so i liked seeing how everyone gathered at the common room, and there was actually enough space :P oh and, liz, esther & i moved the freaking huge tv out on to the curb… that was a lot of teamwork! haha, i guess i got a lot more exercise today than i thought. and i was exhausted, so sitting on the futon was much needed relief… as we watched vampire boy or something. 

then, i headed back to my room, did some work, and then met up with people at lower, as we got ready for esther’s birthday! it was kinda sketchy hanging outside the house, and hiding behind the cars… but once we started singing, even the neighbors upstairs saw us and was waving their vanessa hudgens cut out at us… weeeeird. it was fun seeing everyone, though i must admit, i like smaller settings… too many people scare me. haha. 

then i began to study… at midnight. oops. but i was pretty efficient with my time, i’m surprised i barely got distracted! and i managed to finish my psych studying by 2ish.

well, today was pretty fun, i got to try milkis, which is carbonated yogurt drink, so it was very good! but i think the carbonation tricks me into thinking that it’s not that sugary… uh ohs. and, it’s definitely fun building stuff. well, as long as i don’t break it…

day 274

blah. i think i had too much caffeine in my body when i tried to sleep… so there was some tossing and turning :/ but at least i woke up on time, and got ready for the exam. it was kind of a bummer though coming out of the exam, because i always feel like math should be easily aced because like, you manipulate a number here or there and you get the answer! or something like that… but i think i overcomplicated things on the exam. owned….

whatever. its times like these when i realize even when given many talents and such, i can still forget to be thankful and feel inadequate instead. it’s fairly frustrating because many times those voices are lies. and it’s a battle to confront them and reveal them as they truly are. man, why does a math test cause all these problems??

oh and today was such a rainy day. i didn’t feel depressed or anything… but it definitely felt slooooow. haha, even one of my teachers ended class 20 minutes early…

went back home, and it was very relaxing on the ride back. i managed to finish this book that i started just a couple weeks ago, and i guess it’s very revealing… or something.

what women wish you knew about dating

well, i bought this at the recommendation of don miller, and i liked it! there were definitely some things i thought, shoot! i gotta get my life in order… and other parts, i thought, so that’s how you approach it… haha. i’ve read a couple christian books on dating, sex, and such and i think this is one of the better ones. i mean, it’s hard to give advice to the youth group about such topics if i’ve never dated…yeah. so its very practical and helpful. and i think just in general, i do want to be a man. not a guy. (which is defined in the book)

we had guests over this week, and since they’re from taiwan, we had a lobster dinner! ah yes, they were doing some recording for Good TV… a christian show that’s broadcasted on the west coast and primarily in taiwan. i think this is the first time they did a feature on boston, so we got to host them! :D

youth group went fine. i showed the skit guys clip from youtube, and each time i watch it, my heart gets convicted. it’s crazy…. just how much i can identify with it. and i hope they got just as much out of it…

back at BC, i spent my time with the 90 boys. saw kisuk! and just hung out there until i realized that i had to go sleep because of praise practice tomorrow… whew, i really need to get work done tomorrow!

day 273

wow i overslept again! i better not tomorrow though… i gotta do well on my math exam.

classes went by quickly, had office hours, and got a lot of work done there too. some of the freshmen are still very confused about how to run for senate though…  i’m not sure whether to pity or be angry at them because we clearly laid out instructions about how to run… oh well. i know i was confused when i was a freshman… and i still am. haha. got some shaw stuff done with helen, then cooked dumplings and scallion pancakes for dinner! i was gonna cook some for marco… but he disappeared. but, for some reason, i cooked the scallion pancakes too long and it became too crispy. and, my stomach felt weird after eating that meal… was it too oily? or maybe i didn’t cook it long enough? i’m pretty sure i can heat up dumplings…. fail.

headed over to the splash meeting with nick, and i’m hoping to be able to teach a class! not sure on what though… guitar might be too difficult in getting resources. i also suggested tea drinking. or video game themed…. =)

then i headed over to ksa first gen meeting with dan kim and jae maeng. got owned by the pilot ID thing at walsh because dan borrowed esther’s id, so we had to go all the way back to get dan’s id from his room…. haha. the guy was like, i see 2 guys and 1 girl on the screen…. but i see 3 guys…. “one of these kids is not like the other, one of these kids is DAN.” i mean dead. i mean not a girl. :/ first gen meeting was eh. i’m not sure if signing up for as a ksa dad is a good idea… oops.

then dan and i headed to the library after some rest back at 90 talking to everyone there. i took a nap in the library, and that really helped calm my stomach and focus me for studying. i’m not too nervous about this multivar exam… more like, i just don’t want to oversleep! so i’m actually sleeping somewhat earlier tonight. YES. phew… i hope tomorrow goes well!