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Week 8: Recap

Sunday

Steve Chua spoke on worship and a place called Naioth. This refers to 1 Samuel 19, where Saul goes to find David and instead becomes filled with the Spirit and starts prophesying. This was definitely something new that I hadn’t heard about, and I was quite intrigued to learn that Naioth means God’s dwelling place (or something like that).

Michelle Choi’s Birthday! Wow, almost forgot about that, but the gajok managed to round up a few of the children to surprise her, and we had a white mountain birthday cake :)

Monday

Valentine’s Day Shopping began in the morning, and I hit up four stores to complete the to-do list. First off, Starmarket for steak, then CVS for body wash… (ok that was just for me, haha), Olympia Flowers for a half dozen of roses, and then Chipotle for lunch :P

So, for Valentine’s Day, Steph & I began with a steak dinner. I was a bit hesitant since I never cooked steak before, but my mom said it was easy… and I just seasoned two fat pieces of steak and then let it cook for like 20 minutes. I’m surprised it turned out well! But, there’s still room for improvement… I think I cooked it well-done, which is a bit too much for me, since I’m more of a medium guy, but I was more afraid I was going to undercook it, haha. With the sauce leftover, I added red onions & mushrooms, and then cooked some veggies as well for a well-balanced dinner :) 

Next, we had plans to go to Northeastern (first time visiting!) to see Dave & Rich open for Tim Be Told! Most of the 90 boys went to the concert to support as well as Justin, Esther, Young Park, Ryan, Young Hahm, and Jin. Dave & Rich definitely blew out the other openers :P and I was quite surprised that Dave did a shout out for Steph and me… oh boy. And then, they sang hunters & cougars! They had such good stage presence, although they made it a bit awkward for the two people they asked up, one of which was Dave’s cousin! Then, Tim Be Told came up to play, and they were amazing :) Though, I was a bit bummed to hear that half the band quit… I’m so surprised that they’ve been able to continue and find new members, and I can’t wait for the new album!

Tuesday

The Leadership Exchange was a meeting where we gathered various leadership groups on campus, including Shaw, to mingle and to listen to a speaker, Michael Durkin, CEO of United Way of the Merrimack Valley. It was great that most people were able to come, and the Heights Room was packed! I think there was probably about 200 people, and the food was good too :) especially since it was free. Personally, I didn’t meet many new people even though I saw with other leadership groups… because Justin Feng was from ELP and I think Arthur was from Freshman Academy… and another girl was from Shaw and ALA. Win for me :)

KRUP Auction was very hilarious, although when I arrived, Justin and my service was already sold to Dan Kim… He wants good guitar lessons :) I was hoping to win something this year, and I had a couple serious bets going, but for some reason, someone else always seemed to win out. So, at the end, I didn’t get to buy anything :(

Wednesday

Thea Bowman Reception was amazing for the free food! That, and I went with the guys from Gate 404 and Young Jae. We just kept eating… and that was probably the most exciting thing about it :P The actual reception took so long because they called people up too slowly, but Don & Andrew made it amusing by switching names… haha.

Ended the night with Applebees with the Gajok! We had quite the scare since Rachel didn’t have her phone, so we couldn’t contact her. We kept waiting for her since she had told us she was definitely coming and we even confirmed when she left her place through friends… but she was not at the bus stop! Eventually, we left without her, and to our surprise, Rachel was waiting at the Reservoir bus stop… phew :P She told us her story/thought process, and basically she thought there was another stop after main gate, but once she arrived at Cleveland Circle, she unsuccessfully tried asking people for a phone… yet that probably wouldn’t have worked either since she didn’t know any our of numbers! Gosh… at least half-priced apps were delicious, and we were able to finish it all, especially with dessert!

Thursday

Lunch with Dr. Bob was so great, as we hadn’t really talked for a couple months! I really enjoyed our  conversation, and I hope the next time we meet up won’t be so long in between…

I skipped Feminisms discussion for BC IDOL preparation, and while we couldn’t sound check individually, it was good to know how the guitar would be mic’d. Neither Liz nor I could eat dinner, so we just spent most of our time just waiting around with Ryan & Shinyoung until BC IDOL started. We were up 4th, and while I didn’t feel too nervous before the performance, I think that all changed when I realized we were going up on stage! I was so glad the song went without hitch, so at least, we couldn’t regret how we did :) Then, we headed into the audience to see everyone else perform, and I cannot believe how talented people are! The acts were amazing, and there were even children from St. Columbkille performing - CRAZY GOOD :) Finally, at the end of the competition, we were waiting for the results, and when I heard who placed in 3rd and 2nd, I was a bit bummed because I hoped we were gonna place… but, it was quite stunning when it was announced that Liz Peter had won first place! I was a bit confused, especially when I walked on stage, but what a great feeling to be able to help a friend win! :) And, even cooler, she won a check for $350! And she is now the BC IDOL, yay! What an unforgettable night… I loved it! Especially with all the support from our friends :)

Friday

The ROFL Winter Retreat began with just youth from Connecticut and Boston, as NY people were in traffic and still on their way. I was taken aback at how amazing the flyers, booklets, and schedule were done because they definitely surpassed my expectations! The NY people didn’t make it until the message was over, but it was a fun night just getting to know the California team, which included Pr. James Wang along with his wife, his brother John, and two other co-workers, Brian & Grace. I mainly worked on audio and visual stuff, which was a bit new for me, but I liked the experience :P

Saturday

What a tiring but fun day… the messages were great, the small group time was meaningful, and the small group competitions were awesome! While we didn’t get to really interact with either the Connecticut or NY people, it was a good time to strengthen the leadership within our youth group. But, at the same time, we realized that we had to be more missional, and we saw that being more welcoming to our brothers and sisters in Christ from other states would be good practice :D

Sunday

Church was packed! Usually, service is full with the adults and kids, but with an additional 50-60 youth, there were lots of people standing! And, it was great to see the place filled because hopefully, this will happen soon with our youth :) Haha, I’m praying for it! Anyways, leading worship after/during the retreat for Sunday was really rewarding because I didn’t feel like I had to “switch” mindsets. I mean that usually I spent Saturdays at BC, so to wake up the next morning for church and all takes some time to adjust, but being at a retreat, it wasn’t needed and it just felt easier to pour out my heart during worship. After service, I decided that it would be prime time to show the other churches the circle hug :D And, while they felt awkward in the beginning, I think they liked it :P 

Lunch time was fun, as there were little kids running around everywhere! Even the youth from the other churches were playing with them, haha. But, then we had to leave early, as my dad had to prepare a lobster lunch for the California team. I rested a bit, and then for dinner, we went out for Minado! Despite a long wait, it was worth it, and although I missed KRUP training, I’m glad I got to talk with the California team since I didn’t really have time during the retreat to do so. Wow, what a great weekend, although I’m definitely more tired than usual, haha.

day 304

what a great sunday! well, except that i woke up late… haha. but aside from that, i thought worship really went without hitch…with the cues all being hit and such. i just felt very relaxed, not having to worry about this or that for the songs and such. the message was relevant too as we prepared for the welcome night! and, sunday school was mainly about how to prepare for the welcome night, and everyone seemed excited! i was very thankful to see all this go so smoothly :) ah yes, today was also julia’s birthday! so much stuff was happening today, as the adults mainly went to the new church building to clean up the place/rake the leaves, while the youth stayed back to prepare for the hallelujah party (our church’s alternative to halloween :P). it was pretty fun decorating and getting the games ready, but even BETTER when the kids came to play :P i was in charge of the wii station, but i eventually just went around taking lots of photos with kids, haha. oh and i dressed up as a ninja.. or so i thought, but people thought i was a scuba diver… fail! i thought wearing black cold gear + my naruto head band would work, but nope! :/ haha, and so i was wearing tights the entire time… at least i was warm? errr. good day though, but definitely exhausting! and i ate too much candy, ugh. i hope i will upload photos sometime soon…

heading back to BC, i met with jinah to go over some gajok stuff :) then i worked on physio with the group down at lower. it was a fun time seeing everyone, and it was great hearing that highrock retreat went well! though, justin got sick :/ i can’t wait for photos to come up…probably embarrassing :P well we managed to get what we wanted done, and then we split up as some of us headed off to the library. i stayed at lower to meet steph for late night, and we talked about high rock retreat as well! i realized during this weekend… that most of the people that i hang out with go to highrock, lol. ah, and diane just came back from her church retreat as well and she prayed for me and my interview :) then, i headed back to do some studying/preparing for my interview tomorrow… i’m definitely not getting enough sleep for tomorrow :/ doh.

day 260 & 261

friday began calmly, as classes went by smoothly, and justin and i were able to get our physiology concept chart to finally work during class! that was a huge relief because uploading stuff on the server was SUCH a pain. i did some studying in between class and after class because i was hoping to get some work done before the retreat. i played some smash bros with nick, sean d, and phil, and then headed off to meet with fr. mcnellis for a shaw seminar. it was a short talk, but i liked the conversation we had about leadership, and i hope the discussion will go well.

getting back to the room, things got a bit frustrating. at first, i was delighted to get an email from usc inviting me for an interview! but then, i realized that only one date could fit my schedule, and this would mean 3 interviews back to back… not something i wanted at all. and, my only other option if i could not accept these dates was to re-enter the pool and hopefully be chosen again for interviews… great. then, i got an email from tufts saying it’s missing my rec letters, and now i gotta get THAT fixed. and, i think worst of all, i took out my frustration out on my roommates. or more like, i just acted really gloomy. i was bothered by these emails and crunched for time in packing for the shaw retreat, and while my roommates were trying to be humorous and such, i just responded curtly and sarcastically… bleh. i can’t believe that circumstances i can’t control get to me more than i’m willing to admit. 

well, getting to shaw was a long haul as i walked the entire thing from lower to upper with a guitar, backpack, and dufflebag. i debated about bringing the guitar because i was unsure whether i’d play… but in the end, i’m glad i did :) so it was worth the haul! i totally forgot about dinner though but thankfully, i didn’t feel too hungry. we boarded the school bus soon enough, and i immediately fell asleep on the bus. because of rush-hour traffic, instead of taking 1.5 hours to get to the cape (sandwich, ma), it took us an extra hour. so we arrived at 8pm. and while i was able to drown out most of the sound on the bus, i was quick to realize that this shaw class was VERY talkative. and loud. and noisy. it was going to be a very interesting retreat…

after arriving at the camp site, we took a tour of the place in the dark (which wasn’t very helpful, as nothing could really be used as landmarks), and we got situated quickly at the meeting place. we did a couple ice breakers, and as we progressed into deeper activities, like reading their college essays, i got a better glimpse of the group. it was very surprising though because it seemed like many of them went through such painful experiences that i had never had to deal with… yet we’re all in the same room at the same school… how interesting. late night snacks and pizza were a GREAT break from all the sharing we had to do, and we closed the night with a bonfire! the guys were able to set it up despite a couple of problems, and i played guitar as everyone sat around the fire. at first, nobody knew the songs i was playing… sigh. i wish more people knew dave barnes :P but, as i took song requests, they started joining in! haha, and as the last song, we sang I’ll Make A Man Out of You! that was so fun :) oh, and the guys really loved scaring the girls at night… because there were very few lights at the camp… haha, at one point, i just stood on the trail, as a group of girls with flashlights came toward me, and they just kept squealing because they couldn’t identify me… i guess that was enough to scare them. :) oh and knocking on their cabin walls was hilarious :P

most of us went to sleep around 2am, and we woke up at 730 for breakfast. gosh, the night was SO cold (my nose felt very cold :P), but at least the sleeping bag kept me warm! strangely enough, outside was warmer than the cabin room…we did a couple more activities in the morning, and these were very deep, as we worked out identity and diversity issues in the group. much of this was silent during the activity, but seeing one another and recognizing that many of us could identify with a certain experience or problem really built up bonds within the group. and… there was some crying. haha, some of the guys were like… man this is so depressing! why can’t we do a happy game… but, in a sense, it was cathartic, and it let me be more reflective as well. 

we then packed, had lunch, then moved onto the low ropes course! man, this was SO hilarious to watch! jire was definitely the most entertaining, and since this group was very talkative, they had a difficult time communicating… and as the activities progressed, they realized that they worked better under silent conditions :P i hope they quickly learn to listen more! then, we ended with a group photo, and headed on the bus back to BC!

i again passed out on the bus, and heading back to my room, i met the guys who were heading off to kid cudi. then, i just did a lot of cleaning around the room because my roommates are ridiculously messy! this may be more frustrating than i thought it’d be… i think we’ll need to have a room meeting :P because this is exactly the reason why i stay in the library most of the time. so i don’t have to deal with chaos everywhere when i come back after the weekend. oh well, at least i was able to put some things back into place, and i headed home. i got lots of packages this week, and i hope this makes me feel finally “moved in” to BC… haha. oh and i got up to date with all the stuff i missed on tumblr/youtube during the retreat :P

day 176

whew such a long day! woke up at 7 because we had to get ready and eat breakfast by 845 to catch the bus. so early… but i somehow managed to wake up :P. and i called dr. bob before getting breakfast to talk about retreat stuff, and it’s so fun to talk to him. he’s very down to earth and always willing to have a conversation with shaw. hopefully, his meeting with reslife will go well concerning shaw…

the breakfast line was SO long! i forgot that overnight, a FLOOD of people came, so by 8 there was already a line. luckily, my mom and sisters already had a table so i could just step into the buffet line :) went to the jubilee site, and i played a little basketball before the actual service started. the morning worship was led by vincent lim and the vancouver worship team! they were really good too, especially the guitars and bass :P though i didn’t know most of the songs they sang. but, they were easy enough to catch on. oh and they did a better job with putting lyrics on the slides… for some reason, the hendrickson family squeeze all the lyrics on one slide, making it impossible to see due to small font size for songs that have a lot of lyrics… and it looked like the vancouver team also had a specially designed background. and they had their own t-shirts… haha, man they’re so cool. oh and vincent is JACKED! i don’t remember that two or three years ago when i saw him lead worship, but now reminds me of jeremy camp with a mohawk :P

for the morning session, sean smith spoke, and i really liked it. he shared his testimony of how he grew up in the ghettos of oakland, and how his dad was unjustly killed by two police officers due to his skin color. while the law found those two officers guilty and paid reparations…, that really doesn’t make up for the fact that he grew up without a positive male role model. so that really broke my heart, just understanding how important male role models are needed for this generation. oh i guess since he has a common last name, it should be noted that he is african american. but gosh, the way he talks reminds me of obama! (and i’m not trying to be racist…he just speaks THAT eloquently). so he didn’t lead a healthy lifestyle until college when he had an encounter with God that radically changed his life! like, he basically passed out on his rug from partying, but prayed that if God revealed himself, he would give his entire life. and a couple hours later, he awoke to the light and glory of the King and immediately began telling others about jesus! so crazy. actually, he shared about how he’s never backslidden, not due to his own strength, but he understands that if he doesn’t constantly strive to seek God, he will backslide and he knows that what is there is unsatisfying and destructive. man, i was so impressed by his mindset of not compromising… i gotta work on that!

anyways, he shared his message from numbers 22-23 about the story of balak and balaam with the cursing/blessing of israel. and it’s so funny how even though balak summons a prophet to curse the israelites, it can’t happen because God doesn’t allow balaam to do so. i think sean talked about: deception, distraction and divination. yet, the israelites stumble when they allow the moabite women to enter into their tribes…and so, in a sense, the israelites cause their own downfall because they reject god. and so a plague breaks out. and the only way it’s stopped is when phineas drives a javelin into a man who is flaunting the sinful act during the plague. so sean talked about how we need people who are willing to be passionate for god (not kill people, lols!…that was more of OT context) but to be his burning ones. oh and i thought it was a good reminder how in the promised land, there are other tribes because the israelites need those resistances in order to grow. without trials, the israelites would just remain childish or stagnant in their growth, and in the same sense, we shouldn’t be avoiding pain because it’s in those times that we actually grow. yeah… i wish i made more sense here, but i think that’s because i never take notes during messages… perhaps i should… doh.

after the message, it was time for lunch and we had quiznos! my goodness, there’s just TONS of food, and it’s incredible how much preparation is needed to feed 600+ kids! well, after lunch, i decided to play basketball until the worship team with the hendricksons. it was good too, despite the small lyrics, because i knew most of the songs. after that, we broke up into regions… and basically it split up into norcal, socal, NW pacific (vancouver, washington, oregon), and east coast… which wasn’t really east coast because it included massachusetts, florida, georgia, texas, and north dakota. REALLY? North dakota?! haha, so that was interesting during our meeting. we only had 10 or so people, but it was good nonetheless, actually possibly better :P because it was easier to listen and understand how each church was doing. and in a sense, the east coast churches are a bit remote compared to the ones on west coast, but i think the sharing really encouraged me, and reminded me to be thankful for what God is doing at our church!

after that, we had regional games… and since the east coast came a bit late… we were presented in front of the crowd… and that was a bit awkward because i didn’t want to jump and shake my booty. errrrr. and to make matters worse, after that, they asked for representatives from each region and i was chosen since i was the oldest of the group… greaaaaaat. i decided to be awkward and slowly do my jump and shake. oh well. i got a free tshirt! but it’s too big :/

afterwards, we had group games, but i just watched because it was so chaotic. then it was time for dinner, and the pizza was very bland… at first, they were telling us to only take two slices, but soon, they were telling everyone to take more, but by then, i think everyone figured out the quality of the pizza :/ i think they decided to sell the leftovers at the snack shack. i was tired from the basketball i played in the morning, so i found a quiet spot for a nap.but then 20 or 30 minutes into my nap, i was awoken by rumblings… but i decided to ignore it and just listen to my ipod as i closed my eyes. but then someone decided to wake me up! the nerve… lol, i was obviously sleeping! but at least i didn’t act irritated, more just out of it. anyways, she just wanted to sell me stuff…and i didn’t feel like buying stuff from someone who woke me up especially since it was a notebook. i have tumblr! so i went back to sleep, but by then it was too loud, and i guess my sisters were around the area because when i awoke, they were telling me how people almost sat on me since they didn’t notice i was there. oh that and the fact that they decided to have a breakdancing contest in that area. no wonder it was so loud…

bought some cds, and gosh that girl who woke me up was so aggressive in selling, that i decided to buy a book and cd from her too… haha. i’m not good at saying no. her voice was very high too… bordering annoying. or child-like :P ok no judging. i’m just trying to state facts here..

for the rest of the break, i just watched people play basketball, and finally got a chance to play the last game. it was pretty fun despite the loss. and i hated how i sweat so much after the game… i felt so sticky and sweaty. ugh. then, it was time for service, and i met nate and dave sun as we entered the place. 

the place was packed! the urgency youth had come too, so the chairs were taken out, and everyone sat down. gosh, their youth group is so much more culturally diverse… white, black, asian (uhhh other than chinese i guess?), hispanic. hmm. im impressed by urgency’s cutting edge way of attracting youth… i mean, it’s more than the videogames and basketball court, but i think in a sense, it does make newcomers feel welcome without forcing them to sit in a pew or something. anyways, their worship team (i forget the name…) ROCKED the house! it was SO much louder with the bass blasting through the subs…heart numbing :P but musically, i was so impressed at how they covered the new hillsong songs! wow, i don’t think i’ve ever seen it done so well, and they had a lead singer, a bassist, drummer, and two electric guitarists, both with teles. it seems like all worship bands have teles now… haha. anyways, they opened with no reason to hide, freedom is here, take all of me, tear down the walls, and ended it with an IHOP matt gilman song: holy.  I really liked it, probably because i knew the songs, though i guess hillsong united’s newest album wasn’t as good… without the proper electric guitar sounds, they’re difficult to introduce, but urgency nailed them! and the lead singer was great! despite the fact that i couldn’t sing as high as her and had to change octaves, she led really well!

so, sean smith spoke again for the night session, and it was great! first, his son (brandon josiah smith) shared about taking a stand on purity, and this guy is a scholarship basketball player for cal berkeley, and they recently won the pac-10! i thought that was pretty cool, look him up! :P actually, it was more interesting how he stood up for the fact that he’s a virgin, and how he’s not ashamed of it… yeah i don’t understand why it should be shameful. society is messed. anyways, building off of that, his dad spoke about being a generation that brings a revolution. he talked about how revivals always begin with a small group of young people, and he focused on king josiah from 2 kings 22-23. i guess what i took away was the fact that in the bible, it states that there was no king before or after him who obeyed god like him. wow, not even king david?! and just as crazy, josiah’s acts were prophesied in 1kings 13, and this was fulfilled like 250 years after! that’s probably one of the reasons why josiah ripped his clothes after discovering the book of the law…wow. that’s conviction. and one another thing, looking on his past, growing up in an ungodly environment, because his dad Amon brought in all the idols and practices, it’s unbelievable how god can use people and bring about such change! and that says a lot about josiah’s character too! shoooot. i never realized this before. anyways, sean focused again on being the generation that will be relentless. to not compromise on ideals or character. and not to just live a coasting christian life. but to fight and to grow. i know this is SUCH a long post, but already, if i have to sum it up, my destiny and vision for my senior year is to make evident the life of christ in my life and to take the campus for jesus! (i know it’s a jesuit school, but honestly, it’s become more of a tradition than anything else…and everyone, myself included, wants a kingdom invasion!)

the bus ride back was fun too! i got to meet a new guy named ray, who is from LA, and we just talked about the conference and such. he’s 17, a junior in high school, moved from taiwan just 3 years ago but his english is pretty good!, and he was surprised to find that i was 20 because he said he looked older than me… haha. doh! :P oh and he’s going into culinary school… impressive :) a good day indeed :D

day 175

what the. i just posted this and it got erased! lame…this hotel internet thing needs to get authenticated everyday and it messed up the posting. doh!

anyways, i slept in today. i realized that it’s really hard to wake up without the sun shining through. i had to fight to wake up in pitch black because the shades were over the window…

got lunch with my grandma, my aunt, and my uncle. we ate at a chinese restaurant. and even though it was supposedly rated top 100 chinese restaurants in the world, i was not impressed…like the soup was so sour! more sour than sweet and sour soup or sour patch kids… ew. and everything else was decent. i still like boston’s china town better :)

went back to the hotel to take a nap. when i woke up, i got some work done: shaw retreat, emailing fr. leahy, dr. bob…then we headed to the church at 5:30 for the retreat. but when we got there, we were told that we missed the bus! it came at 4:00, but thankfully, there was someone at the church who could send us to the Jubilee retreat center, which was only 10 minutes away. 

when we got there, we were impressed! the place was HUGE! and inside, there was a basketball court, tons of videogames/TVs, and a nice sound system and stage. and the entire place was very modern, with low hanging light fixtures, weirdly shaped walls, and interesting colors. i can’t believe this is for the youth. well, the youth of the jubilee church. i think the name is called urgency. their logo is kinda boring… :/

well, we got tacos for dinner, and headed inside for the evening service. it began with a video that had clips talking about DESTINY, the main topic of the conference. my favorite had to be zoolander :) but braveheart and lord of the rings were nice too. worship was led by the hendrickson family, and that was pretty cool. the drums, piano, and vocals were rocking! oh and i think they help out with IHOP in kansas city, though i never heard of them previously… for the message, pastor mark hendrickson spoke, and he talked about the destiny of Joseph. it was good, but at times, i would get confused about where he was going with certain ideas… and he kind of ended it at the part where joseph gets jailed… errrr. haha oh well. anyways, after the service, i kinda felt fake because i was being “interviewed” about how i liked the message, and i was like GREAT! even though i really felt more like… oh i see. actually, i tried to sidestep the message by giving the excuse that i was shy, but my sister didn’t realize what i was trying to do, and she was like OH SURE, we’ll do it. ohhhhh boy. i don’t really want to see myself on the screen tomorrow. gg owned.

well tonight was fun. i got to see some friends i hadn’t seen for some time, like dave and nate sun. and i got to meet up with johnny and jennifer from the winter retreat! i wonder what tomorrow’s gonna be like…

day 52.5

okay so here’s the lowdown of what happened yesterday. because stuff DID happen. and now that i’m fully awake from my 2 hour nap, i’ll try my best to describe it.

well, i guess it begins with going to sleep since i went to sleep at 2am after watching the hills have eyes with matt, joseph, and josh. what a great…bed story. it was pretty funny although i only watched the last half hour or so.

the next morning began with breakfast and although the schedule was earlier than a usual sunday service (it began at 930), things were more chill. i wasn’t as stressed out, and i knew it was going to be a good day. that, and i brewed some peach tea.

as we began worship, there was this desire to seek god more, and we just kept singing “spirit overflow, let me overflow” and then this transition to how he loves. the message focused upon jesus and the paralytic carried by his friends. about how we are comfortable and how we move away from it, and while simple in idea, it was difficult to admit areas of such difficulty, but possibly through community and friendships, they can be overcome as they are brought to christ. i think im paralyzed by fear. but i know that love drives out fear. i need more love.

we packed up, watched random youtube videos of goats talking: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x0S5zS8jSE4

ate lunch. and picked up the encouragement bags before heading back to church. when we returned to church, everyone was leaving…but for a good reason! we were all getting ready to go see the NEW building that we had bought! It was so exciting, and when we entered to go explore, GOSH it was definitely a maze. there were so many rooms and hallways that it took a good 30 minutes to make my way around the entire thing. and throughout it all, i just kept asking, God what are you going to do in this room? how are you going to fill it? who’s going to come? what’s going to happen here? Because i also knew that when excitement wore off, we would have to stay true to the vision, and believe that god could provide. so, with this and the retreat, my heart was encouraged. encouraged that the youth group could love without holding back. love without judgment. and love freely. and if we are able to do that, there’s no doubt god will bring people into this new church. but for now, it’ll seem so funny that a congregation of just 100ish people is in a 51,000 sq. ft building. that’s roughly a football field. of course, this is split up into two floors, but trust me, you will get tired out as you try to find your way around the place. lastly, props to mrs. garthoff, who mediated this deal for the church. she is a great woman of god.

and then at the end, we had a huge snowball fight. and i didn’t even have to do the dirty work of throwing the snowball. you see, i just made snowballs and discretely told the kids who to throw them at. and of course, you can’t hit the kids back with a snowball because then that’d make you look like an idiot. and cold hearted. haha PERFECT. but i think people then caught on. because then the kids started throwing it at me. obviously,  i need to “program” the kids better. ok im kidding. but it was a fun time.

finally i headed back to BC. and the first thing i did when i got back was to clean the suite with sean and nick. it was relaxing, and i think i was confirming the fact that i could actually clean and vacuum. it was a job well done by us 3 men. oh yes, men can and do clean. we just dont want to shame others in doing such a good job. it only happens on special occasions.

then i was off to krup meeting. had a southern style dinner: rice + sausage, collard greens, & corn bread. watched act II of the spike lee documentary, which was more disturbing based on the ineffective response posed by the us government and people in general. but, i’m sick of my own name blaming, and i’d rather listen and restore than destroy and ignore. (cool that rhymed)

i think i’m doing just 3 things for the auction, so it doesn’t look like i’m being a hog. haha. so just 2 duets (angela & justin) and a serenade. foot massage is still up for grabs, but probably not.

and then, the rest of the night to the wee hours of the morning was studying. i’m thankful for this weekend. of course, i would’ve loved if not everything crashed together in such a small period of time, but i’ll definitely remember it. all the experiences and memories have made me love life more and i feel like i need a bigger heart to love.

peace.

day 51

whew. today was a long day. it went really well. the scheduling was a bit off… but i think the retreat was really beneficial for us as a youth group. at first, i was a bit afraid that there wouldn’t be enough people going, but i think a small group (~18) fostered a more secure and trusting atmosphere. i’m really impressed that people felt safe enough to share their ideas about God, life, and their present situation. I think we have a new/deeper vision of what we are to be as a group, and how we are to live this out. I really enjoyed the movie/documentary we watched during workshop time, called Furious Love. The testimonies and clips throughout were just so shocking, but there was this constant focus to love. i want to be known for outrageous love. not for intolerance, for being hungry for political power, for judging and excluding others.

i’m going to try to get some work done before the huge cram session tomorrow. i hope everything goes well.


day 50

woo. went to sleep at 4 and woke up at 745. for an emergency EC meeting. took until 9 to finally figure out everything, and now i’m waiting for the results…though i really don’t care because both candidates seemed blah. really frustrating.

it was fun to give out caramel delights to each room of the suite. i’m learning what love looks like, giving other people what i enjoy. girl scout cookies are amazing.

im really hoping that this weekend will be productive. the retreat is good so far. i hope i dont get too distracted. time to get rested AND get prepared for my midterms. whoo!

day 38

I was really hoping to get work done since I got back on campus at 2, but obviously that wasn’t the case.

presidential debate. no candidate is really interesting. that kind of sucks, because i feel like my year does not represent BC well. then again, they have a week or two to prove their merit. but i’m not too confident in any team.

kaplan. unbelievably frustrating. i put up with them re-scheduling my class time from wednesday nights to sunday afternoons, but now i’m forced to go to cambridge. that’s not gonna happen. i can’t believe they’d pull stuff like this. i’m paying like 800 for this class, and they don’t respect that at all. looks like i’ll have to be real determined in studying for the dats…

nap time. so worth it because of leading worship this morning. it was really good in the sense that musically, there were no real mess-ups that i can remember. that’s a huge relief. although this makes me want to listen to the recording just to see how we could improve. but aside from that, the experience was rewarding to focus on being united in heart, and also to see the kids do the one way hand motions :D. i think having unity will be key to how the church will see god move this year, especially when it comes to buying a new building. that’s nerve wracking, but the place is HUGE! and i haven’t even seen the inside. just taking a tour outside was impressive, haha.

oh and we had newcomers which was very encouraging to see and meet, since they were youth, and i think they enjoyed their time there. i was a bit bummed not being able to stay after as i usually do because of the debate, because there was going to be cake! the food was SO good. and i never knew there were white sweet potatoes. weird. good thing it wasn’t eggplant.

retreat is coming up soon, and i’m really hoping that a lot of people will come, both old & new. it’s going to be intense, at least going by what i’ve seen from pastor jack lee’s site. but its gonna be major crunch time with all the tests and assignments i have right before and after that weekend. looks like i should prepare in advance…

superbowl. woke up just in time for the 1st quarter. we tried getting food: wings & pizza, but obviously everywhere was busy. we were able to finally get an order into papa john’s, but the order took until the last 5 minutes of the 4th quarter. gg. it should not have taken that long, so we were given the food for FREE! that made it taste SO good. wow. and i like jalapeno pizza. yum. and of course, the saints won. definitely a great game with the two teams fighting hard until the end. the interception sealed the game though and the saints are courageous. or stupid. not sure. but an offside kick and 2pt conversion = beast. i have no idea what that coach was thinking but it worked. gj.

missional core. i find it always encouraging to hear what god is doing in other people’s lives, as it motivates me to engage as well. (was that too corny?) i think i want to be a fisher of men, but it still sounds scary. or silly. am i willing to give everything up to follow that promise?

library. got here around 1130. and im about to leave now. i was somewhat productive, but tomorrow is a big day and i’m going to try to make time/room for lots of work to be accomplished. i have to start out strong!

whew that was relieving. i think this week will be alright. and that’s fine with me.