Week 4: Recap
The 5th year anniversary at ROLCCIB was great! But, it was also a great reminder that we can’t take this celebration for granted because if we get too comfortable as a church by looking at our past accomplishments, we will never see what God has in store for us! So, we prayed for challenges :P because challenges cause us to grow, and I think that’s what I look forward to in relationships…which is possibly not the “best” thing… but I know that’s what will lead to healthier, stronger, and deeper relationships. Haha, well I can’t wait for Donna to come back to speak on relationships because she has an uncanny way of really speaking to people’s hearts, and I love it! And, I’m also very excited to hear that possibly youth from other churches will be coming to our retreat :) The only possible bummer is that when I went to my followup for my TB shot, I was slightly positive! O_O But, they told me not to worry as it may have been just previous exposure and such since I was born in the US… oh well. I still had to take a chest x-ray, which was interesting. Made me think about radiation a lot after I read all about it on dentists misusing x-ray machines… Ok, well I’m moving into BC tomorrow, and I can’t believe I have so much stuff!
Quite the adventure in the morning. Got 4 hours of sleep and woke up at 5:30AM to send my mom to the airport. The shower did wonders in waking me up, and thankfully, I had loaded basically all my stuff on the car the night before, so there was no rushing and such. :) The ride to the airport was smooth with no traffic in sight, and after dropping my mom off to her second trip to Cali (haha ridiculous!), my dad helped me unload my stuff in my room and then we headed to star market for some groceries. As we bought ingredients, my dad helped talk me through what dishes I could make, and this helped tremendously… I think I need to start writing down recipes so when I go shopping, I know exactly what I need… Ugh, but I realize that I don’t really work like that…. looks like I have to change a bit! Took a two hour nap after heading back to school, did some unpacking, and then met Steph & her parents to help her move-in :) We ate at El Pelon, and then thankfully, they gave me a ride to Newton so I could drop off Karen’s stuff at her dorm instead of having her come to Main Campus and then going back… Then, I spent basically the rest of the day with Steph…haha, time seems to go by pretty quickly :P Good thing I didn’t have much else to do because I didn’t realize what a month long separation would do to a relationship… actually, strangely enough, I saw her just a week ago at her place, but the week long wait was more difficult than the three weeks prior to that… weird. Gosh school’s tomorrow, but I’m SO glad to have class start at noon! :D
First day of classes was tiring! I think I have to readjust to sitting in class even though I only had two… and I was really hoping there would’ve been a snow day :( In my noon class, the students stayed for 15 minutes before leaving, as stated (somewhere…), but then the professor came in right then, so she caught most of us before we left… Oh well. At least it was interesting, and she’s very passionate about this subject so I think it’ll be an alright class. Intro to Feminisms was quite intriguing, and so far, I’m surprised to say that I’m enjoying the class. It’s definitely the latest class I’ve taken at 5PM… but it kept my attention so I didn’t fall asleep :P Oh, it’s definitely going to be … entertaining having Steph there as well. I really hope I don’t make stupid comments and get owned by all the girls in the class…Thankfully, there are like 5 other guys in the class. After class, Steph and I cooked dinner and then went to ACF! Despite the snow, rain, and icy paths, I’m surprised SO many people turned out :) It was a fun night seeing so many new (abroad people!) and old faces :D
Literary Forms IS AMAZING. Wow, that shocks me how I have been so impressed by just the first day. I think I’ll get a better understanding of the class later on… but it’s made me think about what have been the best classes/professors I’ve taken, so I hope to post that up sometime. I just love how approachable my professor is, and it’s definitely enjoyable being able to take the class with so many friends :D justin, my roommate nick, andrew, and amir! I’m so looking forward to this class, especially since it’s focused on love… gotta keep learning :) Ah, and research class was relaxed, as Young and I just pipetted… I hope we get paired up because I don’t really know anyone else in the class :/ The rest of the night was spent in meetings at the Elections Committee and for Shaw… which I felt like I was just listening. Then, the night ended with Dan and I playing basketball! I hope that I’ll go more often than just the beginning of the semester and somehow keep an exercise schedule…
Classes were fun today. Lots of rhythmic hand clapping during music class, and some discussion in feminisms. Thankfully, nothing much was required of me since it’s still syllabus week :) Steph and I cooked dinner at her place, and I got to figure out how to use oyster sauce… or at least I think I know how to use it :/ And, I regret not being able to make it to prayer meeting for retreat… but it’s no use to dwell on regrets. Retreat is tomorrow! But, it looks like there’s a huge snowstorm coming in and I fear the bus ride could be somewhat treacherous… gotta pray!
English class was great today though I’m starting to realize and dislike the gap between seniors and freshmen… The comments made and questions asked are on such different levels, but I know I have to be more accepting and patient. I can’t believe the professor does it so well…After class, I prepared for retreat, whether it was making encouragement bags (not a good idea for an artistically challenged person…), packing up worship equipment, or packing my own stuff. The bus ride was enjoyable despite sitting on the wheel and radiator. Diane kept watching Steph and me, haha. As we arrived, I quickly began practicing with the group and while we didn’t feel completely ready, prayer really prepared our hearts, and the night of worship went great! I liked Young’s quote: “When we practice, we practice, but when it’s time to worship, we worship!” I think that took care of everything else… The message focused on race, and I think the discussion group went really well. Everyone was willing to share, and I’m surprised at how engaging it is! I can’t wait for tomorrow, and I’m so blessed to have such a good group :) Let’s see, the leaders are Grace Lee and Eugene Choi. And the group consists of Dora, Ji, Esther (Dan’s sister!), Justin Feng, and Jae Maeng. I think the other thing on my heart is reaching out to new people and breaking out of the comforts of friendships at this retreat… It’s already become apparent, as certain groups of friendships are in place… :/ Thankfully, I’ve been able to have a great conversation with Jacob!
The morning worship set went smoothly, and the message was engaging in that we filled out a chart that focused on intentional vs. unintentional as well as relational vs. systemic oppression/racism. The end results were surprising, as relational and intentional racism is obvious and has been kept to a minimum in society, though the unintentional and systemic problems of racism were intimidating and complex! This sense of hopelessness that individuals could solve such problems in society was connected with the hope in Christ, and this helped renew a deeper understanding of how Jesus is desiring to change the world through us. Also, I liked Mako’s talk about Zaccheus because it gave a new perspective about social justice and a transformed heart, though I guess the first thing that comes to mind is the fact that… Zaccheus was naked when he climbed the tree because they didn’t wear pants back then… hahaha.
Anyways, practice in the afternoon was a bit difficult since our energy was wearing down though singing Disney songs did help later on :P Nick and Ji seem to know most of the songs, if not all! However, the afternoon workshop and games were so difficult to sit through because I felt drained, and I realized how my mood is dictated by my energy level… and I wish it weren’t so much :( I get more irritable than I care to admit, and I didn’t really get to take a nap. Oh well, dinner did help, and Saturday night worship was our last set as ACF praise team! I can’t believe it’s over already…and I’ve enjoyed the moments of setting up/tearing down, saturday morning practices, tuesday large groups, and of course, the energy-draining yet so worth the time and effort acf retreats!
The night concluded with prayer and worship, though I decided to do my own thing and read a bit because something just bothered my heart… Honestly, I’m not sure what, but I was hoping that this year would be different. Yet, in my four years at ACF retreat, this time has always been a struggle to pay attention because it feels uncomfortable… Weirdly enough, I want to say it’s not as spiritual as I hope it would be, instead with it just being emotions and all… because I’m used to more intense things at church and conferences. So, I think my mind keeps telling me, “What gives?”
Anyways, because I did my own thing, and then found Justin Oh and went to do encouragement cards… I didn’t realize that I was needed to play later. Oops! I guess some people worried because I just seemed to have left… but I think I like praying alone. I know people aren’t looking at me when I pray, but it’s so much more relieving to have nobody else there. The rest of the night went pretty well, as I finally got to finishing the encouragement letters, and Dave and I played some guitar and sang :)
One last thing, it definitely was interesting being at the retreat for the first time as a couple… Oh boy, Steph and I got a lot of “attention” for that… and it sure was funny. I can’t wait for the commotion to die down :P because I doubt we’re all that interesting. I think it’s more because we’re one of the new couples this semester. I think we played off the awkwardness of being called cute by not responding. We’re pretty good at that… :)
Week 3: Recap
Worship this morning went really well! I’m just really glad that despite being in a new place with the set up a bit different, as the piano and drums are on opposite sides, which makes signaling a bit difficult…the set was great! Also, Matt played bass, and I like his style of playing though I can’t seem to put it into words…I definitely enjoyed how the music felt and mixed together, and I hope we can jam sometime :) It was a fun yet tiring day, and I’m glad I could just spend the rest of the day at home relaxing.
It’s the last week of break, but I feel as though I’ve finally caught onto what it means to be productive, haha. I finally sent emails out for Shaw, which I’ve been putting off… for like a month or so. Things just always felt so far off, but with school starting in just a week (no way!), pressure pushes me. Also, I went to the doctor’s today for a physical, found out that I’m 5’5” and 127 lbs, and got one shot. Surprisingly, it did not hurt nearly as much as I anticipated…though that’s probably because I can’t remember the last time I got one. I kept asking about immunizations because I needed a form to be filled out for Tufts, but neither of us had an idea about when I had this or that shot… Thankfully, I got a sheet of the shots I’ve taken, and hopefully, I won’t need any more, though the Tufts form may indicate otherwise :/ There was definitely a lot of waiting, but that gave me some downtime to actually read! And, dinner was great as my dad, Tiffany, and I went to H-Mart, and then we did some shopping there as well as at the supermarket. Finally, to end the night, my dad really wanted to watch Robin Hood, and giving redbox a try for just $1, I’m surprised that I really enjoyed the movie :) Yay, talk about being productive!
Well, talk about a complete turnaround… I got nothing done today! Haha. Since I got some chores done early in the morning, I spent practically the rest of the day playing video games, with a little eating and napping slipped in between that. I also got to see my sister play basketball, which was quite amusing and somewhat frustrating… but it was an enjoyable hour :) And, after slaving away at this game, Glory of Heracles, for 34 hours, I am done! At first, it was an interesting plot, but that was soon lost as things got repetitive. I will admit that I liked the story and the quirks, but it was definitely a hassle to go through all of that. And, sadly, the last epic battle was not epic at all. I think somehow I managed to be too strong, and there was no struggle to overcome, haha. At least now, I can say I’m done with a game and feel somewhat accomplished. I think I got my money’s worth as this was on sale for $12… but I realize that I fell into the trap of having to play and finish a game because I bought it. And I know I REALLY shouldn’t start another game… but I sure do love puzzles! Sadly, I know that I should avoid video games, or at least those that are single player, because I really don’t need the time suck at BC. I’ve got one last semester, and I don’t want to waste it like that… Now, all night gaming sessions with the roomies is a different matter ;)
Being snowed in felt great :) though I guess I’m used to it considering I don’t do much outside anyways… I think most people had plans and such so they were bummed… It was fun since both my dad and Tiffany stayed home too! This is the first time I’ve shoveled this year, and I actually enjoy it because the snowplow does most of the work :P It’s not as time-consuming, chilling, and strength-draining. Sadly, the snow was not very packable, so I couldn’t make a snowman. I also got to cook a bit today and learn a couple new dishes from my dad :) let’s see, an egg & tomato dish and tofu, pork, and some sort of greens…. and finally, I practiced some piano and guitar! I like it when I actually get stuff done, though I realize that only happens once I get enough sleep… I definitely need to sleep earlier/more.
Found out from the doctor’s that I need to take a couple more tests/shots tomorrow… yay… Haha. Then, I hurried over to the Burlington Mall to meet Young Park! We decided to meet basically halfway, and it was a good couple hours of strolling through the place for our man date. :) And no, we were not holding hands… And no, Steph is not jealous…. Haha. Anyways, this was the first time Young tried Chik-Fil-A and he loved it! Of course, who can resist the tenderness and goodness, especially someone like Young! :) And then, we just went into almost every store to look at what was fun. We played some Playstation Move at the Sony Store, sat in the massage chairs at Brookstone, and smelled lots of lotions at Bath & Body Works… Oh, and we got ice cream too! It was a lot of browsing and talking and just realizing, “School is almost over…” This was really fun just catching up and reflecting since break is now basically over, and we want to make this last semester count! Lastly, I got to cook again with my dad, and we made corn soup, bulgogi (pre-marinated from Hmart :P), and tofu, celery, and pork dish. I feel like I’m keeping a log so I’ll remember what I’ve learned! Now I just have to actually incorporate them into my cooking routine…wow, I just realized what a pain buying ingredients can be…
Wow, the shots were quite fun and quick today… I decided to look at the needles as they went into my skin and it was so interesting because I realized it didn’t hurt much! Haha, what a weird feeling to see the needle go into my vein and then see blood fill the container…. After the shots, I headed home to clean up the place because we were having a speaker come this weekend for our church’s 5th year anniversary! And so, I went to Logan with my mom to pick up the speaker, then waited 2 hours in traffic before we got home…. Lots of patience. I’m surprised I wasn’t upset at all! It was enjoyable for some reason, and then church at night was great because I just felt very happy despite also feeling tired. It was just a good night seeing everyone at ROFL…
Spent the day at church listening to the speaker, Donna Parachin, from Unstoppable Ministries. She used to work at Singing Waters in Canada, which is a place for that I guess many pastors go to “recharge” Haha. I guess perhaps a retreat center for pastors? :D Anyways, she has a very contagious spirit, in the sense that I know I’m not very positive all the time, but every time I have talked with her, I just feel incredibly enlivened! It’s incredible… part of me wants to just be like, I’m not as happy as you and try to dampen her spirit (funny how it seems like that’s always the case… bringing people DOWN to your level… not good.) but then, I guess I catch the disease and am happier as I talk with her :) So, I think that made listening to her talk much easier because just from my several interactions with her, I really enjoy her presence and how she is able to encourage and love and embody the love of Christ. Well, tomorrow is the 5th anniversary for the church, and it’s incredible how in just five years, we’ve gone from renting a building to buying one! (and a large one indeed…7.3 acres?! O_O)
i am SO physically tired…but what a great day for the big move!
woke up a bit early this morning because my dad had to go pick up the u-haul truck, and realized it was snowing! oh boy…
church this morning felt a bit sparse since we started our service an hour earlier than usual and there was some snow falling…which i bet prevented some people from coming, unless they were on vacation :P but, it was great too because we got to see some old faces! namely, matt from college and julia from arizona :) and well, as announcements were being made about the big move today, i’m pretty sure everyone was getting excited!
i really liked the message this morning as my mom spoke about vision:
where there is no vision, the people perish (Prov. 29:18, KJV)
as we went over examples of how God gave visions to his people, i was reminded how as a leader as the youth group, we need to have a vision! because, this vision turns into our mission and guides our direction….and well, without vision, we have nothing to strive for. i think as of now, ROFL’s vision is pretty general: “love god, love others,” and we need to work on what our mission entails…hmm. anyways, as my mom related this to our church and how it came to be and how it has progressed till now, we realized that all of this has been done, not by our own wisdom, but by God’s leading because there have been countless events and stories that were at first glance, impossible to accomplish, but it happened by what seemed to be miracles! sometimes, it’s difficult to see what’s gonna happen next, but looking back, i cannot believe we have come so far, and well, we have a new story beginning for us!
so, things ended pretty early around noon, but by then, there was a good amount of people too since we had a LOT of things to do! immediately after the message was over, everyone kicked it into high gear, taking apart stuff, packing up boxes, taping boxes, and moving them onto dollys. it was SUCH a good idea that my dad decided to make more because we had unbelievably heavy tables and other stuff, and it just made moving things out of the church THAT much easier. also, we had a quick secret santa exchange with the last few people (matt & julia) who couldn’t do so last week, and so we wrapped it up =) some people still need to pick up their gifts…. haha.
anyways, i cannot believe how much stuff we had accumulated in these past four (almost five!) years… it took three trips of a loaded u-haul truck to finish all our moving… and that’s not including the countless vans that also brought over the more delicate stuff, like the audio visual equipment. it was stunning to see just piles of chairs, desks, drawers, and like EVERYTHING ELSE, lined up at the door despite a truck being filled…. and we had like 30 or 40 adults helping constantly, whether it was moving the heavy furniture, packing up various boxes, or cleaning up the church… and yet it still took at least 3 or 4 hours! and that’s not counting how long it took us to unload and set up again… but we worked very efficiently, so i’m VERY thankful at everyone’s efforts =) even the kids were very well behaved!
well, the blizzard set in around 3:30 or 4… so people who lived far away started heading back to avoid bad driving conditions. i stayed to work on setting up the new sanctuary with all the sound stuff, but it was getting late around 5:30, and we had to head back as well… there’s just STILL so much work to do, but i guess we’ll come back another day.
however, my dad and i weren’t done… because we had to go help julia’s family finish moving. so we took the empty uhaul truck to their house in the blizzard. it was a fun ride because i got to drive in the snow :P there were a couple times that the car was slipping, but nothing felt like it was really out of control because there were no cars to be seen! but i still drove slow… and so the trip took a long time. better safe than sorry! when we got their house, my dad and i worked with mr. ni and his son timmy in moving out bookcases, desks, and other furniture… we had to go outside a lot because some things were just too big to carry down the basement stairs! this was really tiring, and required a lot of heavy lifting… i guess i didn’t do much at the church since i was more focused on taking apart and setting up the sound stuff. gosh, i can’t imagine how tired my dad must’ve been… but eventually, we finished at 7, and drove back home exhausted.
after a well-needed dinner (i can’t believe i forgot to eat the entire day! lol…), we both felt much better, and it was so good to just relax =) i guess i won’t look over my tumblr entries tonight since i just don’t have the energy to do so… but i’ll start tomorrow! also, work may possibly be cancelled because of this blizzard… oh boy.
my goodness, i’ve reached exhaustion again… whew.
man, i didn’t sleep till 5:30 last night because both my roommates had a chem final the next day, and nick decided to pull an all-nighter… i guess that didn’t bother me too much but we did talk about black swan since he was the one who recommended me to watch it. i did enjoy talking it over with him, though i’m pretty sure half my brain was functioning with little sleep… haha.
woke up at 8am, and got ready to send esther to south station. i offered her a ride because i could not fathom how she could bring her freaking ENORMOUS suitcase with her all the way to south station… and i figured driving there would teach me how to get to china town and navigate around… and it did =) well sorta… i basically just learned more about mass pike :P anyways, steph, esther, and i left around 9am, got breakfast and dunkin donuts, and got to south station with enough time for esther to catch the 10am fungwah bus. then, we headed back to BC, and i took a nap until noon…
when i awoke, it was almost time to meet steph’s family! let’s see… i met her mom and dad, her oldest brother tim, and her best friend karyn. initially, i was definitely afraid. or more unsure as to what to do… so i just walked around, haha. steph was busy showing the family around the house, and that gave me time to recollect myself :P things got rolling as we helped steph move out of her place, and then we decided to go to cleveland circle for lunch. when we stepped outside, it was snowing! amazing… the first time it snows is always entrancing and magical… anyways, we decided to go to bangkok bistro, and i brought steph and her brother in my van. while steph was talking to her parents, tim and i (wow that sounds like i’m talking to myself…) talked about his role in being the protective brother… and i realized that i would be in his shoes if either of my sisters started dating… haha. thankfully, he seemed fine with the whole thing and im guessing you’re supposed to be mean as the older brother but i didn’t get that from him. whew. :P anyways, that whole thing started making me think about my sisters… haha. oh boy. well, when we got to bangkok, we realized that it was closed! so we headed to chipotle and got lunch. steph & i split a burrito because after eating a couple times, we had to admit we couldn’t finish one by ourselves… haha.
during lunch, i enjoyed listening to the conversations because i’m pretty sure this is what happened when steph came to dinner with my family… it gave me a feel of what goes on back at home and how each person relates to one another =) i always find that fascinating just because you’re never sure how things are until you actually talk and listen. like, i knew pastor lim mainly spoke in english, but it didn’t really occur to me until i was watching (wow now i sound like a stalker…) them :P and i guess that’s different from my family because i would not trust my dad’s english, haha. half of the time, my dad has corny jokes…ah and, i got to talk with steph’s mom in mandarin since she’s fluent in taiwanese, mandarin, and english, and i got to share about how my parents too. i guess my dad’s side is also from the same place in china as her family. interesting… well, after lunch, we parted ways, and sadly, i got a parking ticket! doh… though i’m pretty sure i was only late like 5-10 minutes, but i realized that if this was the worst thing that happened today so far, then i’m totally happy :)
after steph’s family left, i returned to my room to do some errands and took a nap. then, i did some packing and then offered to send my roommates and jv to coolidge corner since they were going to see black swan! the buses were not running too efficiently in the snow, and i thought it’d be better if i just sent them. it was a fun trip there, though there was definitely a lot of traffic! i’m glad i was able to spend time with them on the car one last time before next year, and then after a lot of waiting on the road, i made it to newton to pick up karen. since i didn’t finish packing, karen came back with me to my room to help clean up, pack, and make dinner. i really could not have done it without her help! while i packed, she helped wash dishes/make dinner, and we switched off in making dumplings and chicken nuggets, and we were able to eat and finish packing by 9… we loaded the minivan, and i headed over to 90 to say bye to the guys before heading back home. despite the snowfall, driving went safely, slowly, and smoothly. i think one time when i was driving my roommates to black swan, the van was acting up and not accelerating… with lights flashing and stuff… but i was able to pull over and restart the car. (i don’t think restart is the right word :P) but, thankfully, nothing bad happened! especially since i heard there were a couple accidents on comm ave that day. karen and i finally got back home around 10:30, and i felt SO relieved… i can’t wait to rest :) but at the same time, i gotta start working for my dad tomorrow! man, i guess at least i won’t be bored? i crave sleep…
i have deactivated facebook! i was a bit iffy about following thru for lent, but it’s done. and i’m glad. of course, i had some reservations about “needing” to contact people. but if its really important, im sure i can be reached. or i could be found at the local library… these two weeks are going to be painful. ive been up till 3 each night because of work. or just trying to stay on top of things and realizing that theres just so much more to do. how frustrating. but part of me enjoys the stress. knowing that im busy means im productive…sort of. that can be such a façade. (i love that word because of that c, it has a goatee).
anyways, today should’ve been a snowday. it was so unexpected and it really piled up unlike last week’s false alarm. AND, it’s amazing to pack. i really can’t believe how it just molds in my hand. beautiful. i felt like a sculptor holding a mound of snow.
im juggling lots of things right now. they better not fall down. and i hope i dont forget any one of them. i think march will be a good month of relaxation. too much piled up too quickly.